Great News

I have some amazing news! :) I submitted an application to Macy's and guess who has an interview! Yep You guessed it!  Can you imagine? My dreams are only so much closer! Im not quite sure yet when my interview will be seeing as I have to set up the date and time, but O-M-G, so excited!!! The position that they are interviewing me for is the cosmetics sales associate! :D Cannot stop smiling! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

The Goddess Epona

The goddess Epona was revered and worshiped by the ancient Celtic people as a loving protector of horses, donkeys and other animals. Commonly represented as a horse figure, a mare and foal or as a woman on horseback, she was also a goddess of fertility, re-birth and abundance. Although originally a Celtic goddess, she was eventually accepted by the Romans who saw her more as a protector of their cavalry.

Although Epona was and still is traditionally seen as a horse goddess, she can fit into so many aspects of our lives. She is the goddess of dreams not only of the sleeping kind but the dreams of hope and ambition. She can be helpful in manifesting dreams and is a good protector to have when venturing on a new path in life. A prayer or invocation can be offered to her if one is having trouble sleeping or wishes to have insightful or peaceful dreams. She is a nurturing caregiver and can be called upon as a protector of families, children and women who are about to give birth.

I have fallen in love with this Goddess through P.C Casts Goddess Series! :) She is an amazing writer, I suggest checking her out! 

Goals

I've decided to set a list of Goals for myself that I WILL accomplish one by one.. :)

1. Don't even bother arguing with Parents.
(Even when they are wrong, let them think they are right. Its not worth it to argue.)
2. Set myself and Dolce up on a Schedule.
(Me an exercise schedule, Dolce a potty break schedule.)
3. Save up ALL extra money that is made from my online business
(ALL money will be put towards Dolce and I moving into an apartment, probably with room-mates.)
4. Sell more items at my online business by Networking MORE.
(Work, Work, Work! )
5. Lose Weight
(see #2)
6. Get acting headshots done along with portfolio pictures
(I need to get working on my acting career.)
7. Make friends
( I seem to be limited on friends, i need to meet more people.)
8. Begin and write a novel that will touch someone's life.
(Outline, Write, and send into a publishing company)
9. DONT FORGET to go to the Dentist. I have 2 cavity's that I need to get filled, and I NEVER have cavity's!
(ugh... )

Something's Got to Change

I cannot live like this anymore... My parents constantly treat me like i'm stupid and I cannot do it anymore. I wrote one of my favorite artists P.C cast about my life and the constant struggles that i go through all the time and she wrote me something that hit me really hard. But in a good way

Here is what she wrote:

"Hi Jenna - I'm glad Brighid moved you. Remember, only you can empower yourself. Love and happiness and peace and joy won't just come to you. You have to step out and claim the life you believe you deserve. Change is painful, but it is through change that we grow.

Brightest Blessings,
PC "

Simple and to the point, but very meaningful all at the same time. I know in my heart that things need to change, cause I dont feel like I can go on this way any longer. Each day I push through hoping that things will just get better. But I know they wont. 

There is one thing in the world that means the most to me, and that is my 4 pound chihuahua puppy, Dolce. My parents know that she means the world to me but when things go bad between my parents and I, they have a tendency to use her against me. "We are going to sell Dolce", "You dont take care of her", "She has accidents in the house", and blah blah blah.. and every time they do that, I feel like a piece of my heart breaks. It isnt right to do that. I care about her more than anyone else does. Dolce and I have a connection (strange as that may sound). I pay for all her vet bills, animal ER visits, toys, clothes, basically everything except dog food cause my parents pay only for that. They have even resorted to taking her away from me and keeping her in their room. It frustrates me so much. She is my dog and its just wrong.

Thats only one of the reasons my parents and I dont get along. It would take tooo long to describe the rest.

Things need to change, and they will. They have to. For Dolce and for myself.

Book: Brighid's Quest

Wow is all I can say... This book is fantastic. I read P.C Casts House of Night Series last year (haven't read her newer ones) but I purchased Elphame's Choice and Brighid's Quest from a local goodwill for .99 cents each. I started reading Elphame's choice thinking that I wasnt going to get into it, but after the first page, I could not put the book down. It was amazing! Then I moved on to Brighid's quest. I was very unsure how I would like this one cause it was about brighid who I didnt particularly like from Elphames choice. Then I got reading and I was completely moved. Brighid was more like me than anything else (except for the centaur part :) She is beautiful and slim and she had amazing friends who would do anything for her. Im plain and a little bit chubby but thats where our differences end. You see, Im aware that brighid is a fictional character so you may think Im silly to be relating to her, but one day you will find something that moves you to tears that you cant let go of. Throughout Brighids life, she has had a constant struggle with her mother. Her mother was bad and her soul was damaged, she took alot out on brighid and she expected alot from her. Her mother didnt treat her well and she didnt love her.
Like Brighid, I have a mother who doesnt treat me very well. I am called names often and I dont feel like im loved, I feel worthless alot of the time. Im constantly measured up to my sister and im NOTHING like her and I never want to be. My older sister has been in and out of jail, and has been back and forth between drugs. WHY am I being compared to someone like that? I find solace in books. It gives me an escape. Something better than reality. Reading about Brighid (even though she is fictional) really helped me to hope; hope that there is something out there in the world calling me. That maybe I have a destiny and maybe just maybe, that im worth something more. And if im lucky, someday I will find the one whose soul is made exactly for mine. I cannot thank PC Cast enough for writing a book that has not only brought me to tears but changed my life. I know I will be alright, because someday someone will care about me, Like Elphame and Cuchulaine care about Brighid.

Show: Revenge

Before you embark on a journey for revenge, dig 2 graves.
~Confucious~

You know, revenge is a scary thing.. Someone does you wrong and then you feel the need to hurt them back... How messed up is that? I've recently become addicted to the show 'Revenge', its on every Wednesday and its amazing. Its about a girl whose dad was wrongly accused of committing a crime. He was sentenced either to death or he died in jail. She grew all alone without any parents and is now out to ruin the lives of the people who had caused her father to be convicted.. As bad as the idea of revenge is, this show is scary good. I give it a 5 stars review. If you have not seen it, I recommend watching it once.
<3 Jenna